Thursday, October 29, 2009


im back here with the last post till a levels are over.
first thing.
im glad i got my com back safe and sound. phew.
second.
less than 2WEEKS and i still feel unprepared.
third.
just one more MONTH and its over.

haha.
well. life had never been so struggling before.
almost got my fingers crossed everyday.
oh wells.
that says it all.
trying my very best. every inch of me.
going back school almost everyday to study.
if not for the gossips and jokes.
i would have drowned in my notes.
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have to thank my teachers here for helping me till now.
esp mr lau. called me to go school do papers.
sorry that i always made mistakes. STIILLL. hahaha/
and mr toh. for helping me getting to the stage 3 of ECONOMICS.
hope i can mug down the syllabus but not achieving by not sleeping:)
ms koh. encouraging me not to give up and believing in myself.
guess the talk after lesson that one day helped a lot.
thanks for the note on the last day. really spurred me on.
mr kwok. trying to make me become more GP-ish.
tells me im not one that gives up a fight. i'm trying!! :)
and FINALLY. ms tan.
guessed she's the one that cheered me up the most.
ever since last year. helping me with physics all the way.
though i still get USE. HAI.
sorry but i had to HAI one last time. LOL.
thats y physics is always the subject i will never forget:)
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i'm glad i had wonderful friends around me in AJ.
ones to confide in.
ones to joke with.
ones to mug hard with.
thank you all.
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OK. till 30th NOVEMBER.
ciao.

P.S: i dunno y there are people who are so disgusting nowadays.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 12:59:00 AM

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

oh wells.
the power of technology.
could be agonising at some times.
damn it. couldnt really fight with destiny.
totally unpredictable.
i wonder if god wants me to stop using the com or prevent me from studying on the com.
yea, my com crashed. totally cant switch it on though.
pretty sad at first.
CO photos, Liverpool photos. MIGHT be gone.
all the new songs i had. SNSD.
MOST IMPT is the physics definitions and summary
that i did for 3 bloody weeks.
MIGHT BE GONE.
damn! should have back up earlier if i know this would happen.
who knows?
man, through this i've learn to look at the brighter side.
it doesnt end here, life still goes on.
still have to take A lvls.
now all i could do is to pray that the repairing wun do anything to the hard drive.
PRAY PRAY PRAY.
A levels are nearing, i'm still like that. HAI.
sometimes i dont know whether to be regretful or hopeless.
i'm a total disappointment.
gods, gotta stop my addiction for SNSD alr.

if i've known there's such a big hole along this street.
i wouldnt have walked on and chose another street.
i would not have chosen JC but go Poly.
its too late.
but i have no regrets.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 12:46:00 AM

Friday, October 09, 2009



went for the concert.
it was fabulous.
long time since i last heard them back in secondary school days.
still as exciting as ever.
especially with the lighter and the tubes.
wished it could last longer though.
they din perform some of their acts they usually perform.
like the one with the basketball.
best would be the kitchen stuff. haha.
oh wells.
enough of relaxing.
back in the books.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:41:00 PM

Thursday, September 24, 2009


woo. almost one month never blog alr.
hai. 
prelims are over. but i kinda screwed.
other than papers being difficult,
on my part i just felt i wasnt 100% prepared yet.
kept telling myself this isnt the right time to peak yet.
just like wat ms tan said, peak at the right time.
oh wells. but the fact is the feeling of not peaking now,
failing again yet again just doesnt feel so good after all.
hai. just solid 47 days away from the first paper of A lvls.
what am i gonna do????
got back GP paper today.
as usual la. seriously.
i tot bout JC after life,
how am i gonna get into a uni with such GP grade?
hopeless. even if i do well for other subjects. which i doubt so.
argh. 
yesterday i saw this beetle accidentally flew into the lizard trap
set up by my mum. i kinda observed it.
despite the ultra sticky trap it was in,
it still continued to crawl, trying to get out of it.
i pitied it, wanted to help it, but i scared i ripped its legs off.
so oh well. i watched it for awhile more, prayed for it and slept.
TILL NOW, its still crawling through the sticky tapes.
even a small beetle tries its very best to crawl out of difficulties,
or should i say death. but it never GIVE UP for a second.
if that beetle can do it,
why cant i try to get out of the deep shit im in now.
HAI.
we shall see den.

now when i see you,
my mind just tells me to walk away.
not a single gesture,
though i wanted to.

Out of Difficulties, Makes Miracles.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 8:24:00 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009


i'm back here again.
hardly into the mugging mode.
just a lil here and there.
glad that prelims for AJ aint that early.
was thinking...

if asked about my views bout it.
i would question why.
probability? possibility?
seemed so improbable.
me?
ask her.

i would rather let it be like the past.
rather than being an oblivion now.
things would only get more complicated.

when will the happiness open?
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Why do birds suddenly appear 
Every time you are near? 
Just like me, they long to be 
Close to you.  
Why do stars fall down from the sky 
Every time you walk by? 
Just like me, they long to be 
Close to you.  
On the day that you were born 
The angels got together 
And decided to create a dream come true 
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold 
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town 
Follow you all around. 
Just like me, they long to be 
Close to you.  
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be like 18 if u are.
stop creating negative externalities.
get a zip if required. glue's better.
hate the frequency.
pls get real.
hurting on others and not even realising it.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:46:00 PM

Saturday, August 08, 2009




dunno what's the big booha bout.
i'm patriotic and at the same time supports LIVERPOOL :)

i'm so tired that i want to give up right now.

don't say anything when u cant do it.
PROVE it before u say it.
instructions are there for a reason.

i can't help but to rmb bad memories that hurts.
thanks for the memories.

i dont like to argue. esp.
i hate hypocrites.

on the bright side: )
im loving the glass bottle that i bought.
now it lacks the stars.

it's the wrongs that make the words come to life.

and last of all...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONSTER FOO!



-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 6:05:00 PM

Monday, July 27, 2009


我每次都告诉自己，
如果错了，
全都是因为我，
全都是因为我的错，
要怪也只能怪罪于自己，
但我从来也弥补不了自己的过错

yes yes, i was wrong to even go to school.
im at fault for everything.
gods. someone pls help me.
i feel like im having mental seizures,
bad anger management. it sucks.
going to the toilet helps a bit though.
get away from stupid atmospheres.
i dun even wanna feel this way.
its just... i dunno how to put it.
argh, this whole thing is making me hypochondriac.
maybe long ago i shouldnt have even...
i wanna let it all out!!
history repeating itself aint a good sight.
oh wells. just have to bottle them up.
had to study alone in school till the classroom closes.
233 is a good place to repent and cry it out.
oh wells. hai.
felt i lost my happiness again.
我想high也在也high不了了
想高兴起来也难，
因为高兴这两个字在那瞬间，
已从我字典上消失了
days without happiness.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 7:00:00 PM



Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like i'll never leave this place
There's no escape.

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up.
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.

I don't know what to take
Thought i was focused but i'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares
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This is how im feeling now.
it sucks

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 6:02:00 PM

Sunday, July 26, 2009


don't know why,
but i feel so sad.
i feel like so f-ing shit now.
swine come find me.
i want to be the 5th dead in SG.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 12:03:00 AM

Saturday, July 25, 2009


sto aspira s riam nt . 
¿ stán los amigos v rdad ros r alm nt  
s duro ncontrar hoy n día? 
odio m ntirosos. 
ti n su man ra, yo no cuidaría mucho me nos ya. 
¿por qu cuido tanto?
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¿soy  s  aspiro r alm nt ? 
no t ngo probabl m nt  nada d mostrar. 
can' t s  compar  a otros. 
 sa  s quizá la razón.
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ust d  staba una v z así qu  ábras  para 
hablar conmigo cada v z. 
todo cambia r p ntinam nt . 
ust d par cía una div rsa p rsona. 
la man ra ust d m  trata, 
la man ra qu  ust d m  mira. 
su tan dif r nt . what' s qu  s   nci nd  seriam nt ? 
flora azul.  l significado d  la felicidad.
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为什么 faccia i Gfühl assim ondraan?
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if things were as simple as 1,2,3
there wouldnt be 4,5,6
i need somebody to talk to.
try uncode it

FUCK OFF, LJD

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:48:00 PM

Friday, July 24, 2009


this is really a star-chasing week for me sial.
today was Liverpool. went to watch them train.
skipped PTM. lol.
that was the coolest part. haha.
i swear i will get a DSLR b4 going UK.

yep. once again wat i dreamt was true again.
maybe i should start doing something before i screw everything up.
why am i always stuck in the middle?
gawds. 
the sec 4 feeling is back.
and im kinda loving it.
all the isolations.
always f-ing hate the situations im in.

i seriously feel like a lead blocking a gamma ray from penetrating.
but one thing i like from this is that
i LOVE reading people's minds.

if only it is as simple as...
1 + 1 = 2
but its seem its always...
1 + 1 =   1   1
get it?

would u fly with me?

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:36:00 PM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


realised im having the habit of one post per month alr.
shall double the figure this month.

alright alright.
i'm so f-ing screwed up as usual.
wondering how i was promoted last yr from J1.
oh wells. cluelessO.O
someone pls unscrew me.

NUS Race's over.
had pretty loads of fun.
shant elaborate further.
almost ended up in 2 pieces :(
and it still hurts.

went star-chasing past monday.
almost ended up in a stampede.
din know TVB celebrities got such great attractions.
ok. i was one of those who went gaga la. lol.

thinking of how to survive this fri's PTM.
and the torturous weeks to come.
down for almost all remedials.
how worse can i get?

somehow i knew and felt that u're ignoring my presence
and pretend i've never existed.
why like that? :(
wave or not wave?
or i shouldnt have started everything in the first place.

FUCK.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 8:51:00 PM

Monday, July 06, 2009


argh, seriously feeling damn down these few days ever since sat.
i really dont know how to put it but its so hard to express.
hai. its sucks.
so near yet so far. what should i do?
seems impossible huh.
您

im so afraid of flunking every papers.
getting Us for everyone of them,
which seems highly possible, by judging the past week.
i dun wanna start faltering at this moment.
the road's still long. 5 months more.

today went sentosa with class for outing.
though the purpose was for relaxing.
i still felt so tensed up.
hai. what should i do??

i need someone to confide in. seriously.
oh wells.

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 10:20:00 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009


omg. totally didnt posted a single post this month.
ok, shall post this one and only for june. haha.
ok, nothing much to rant about actually.
life's been so dead. NO LIFE.
my LIFE now is like a everyday EAT SLEEP STUDY thingy.
have been studying non stop for the past few days.
miracle, for the first time in JC i did that. hahaha.
dun say im mugger or i sure pass mid yrs.
for goodness sake. NO!
im like starting everything from ground zero,
cos i forget every single shit.
ahhh. oh wells. 
everyone has been nagging to me...
asking me whether i start studying alr not....
ask me not to play so much....
study hard hard....
chiong all out for A lvls.....
and enjoy like crazy all u want after that..( i only like this part :)
ok. after all those brain washing.
i must say im pretty determined to work hard alr.
I WANT MY BANKING AND FINANCE!!!
oh man. chiong ah!!!!
~still praying for school holidays to extend!~

oh ya, went for NS checkup too. kinda shocking i got PES A.
haha.
finally watched night at the museum 2 today while celebrating father's day outside.
and i saw this super nice adidas bag which is on sale now!
though it looks like its for girls only. but i like it!!
oh wells. gotta save up for it.
i dun uds y i always cannot get the things i want. : (

guess i wont be ranting here for a while : )

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:36:00 PM

Saturday, May 30, 2009


everything has finally came to an end.
finally handed over.
ended my one year of sai kang warrior in CO. haha.
had some feelings that's very hard to express.
shared with wanting and zinc ytd at Astons.
felt so empty inside.
anw food @ Astons is super cheap and nice can. lol.
oh wells.
had a grueling week of returning instruments.
its not that i wanted one man show everytime.
but its everytime i couldnt find anyone available to help me : (
nvm. its over. haha. take it as a weight training la.
oh ya. the new PA building is damn nice. like gov building.
and the new PAYCO room is super nice can. so glam. lol.

had college day today.
before that was exco meeting.
to fully hand over whatever stuff we have.
den college day.
where CO waited 2 hrs to just perform for less than 5 min. wth.
so crazy so people like us did crazy stuffs during the wait.
played stupid games and stupid forfeits.
laughed our ass off and so throw face in front of choir. lol.
lots of videos taken la. go see at my facebook. haha.
after that went J8 swensons.
chose that place so that i could do 2 stuffs.
one is for lishi to treat me. haha, which turned out her saying doesnt feel like she treated me anything. got wat. i only treated percussion peeps earthquake nia ma. haha
and the other was to celebrate linqian's birthday.
which means i ate swensons freaking TWICE!! fat fat fat!
but i ate kinda appetizer with CO gang den main course with class peeps.
omg. nida run a few more KM alr.
went roof top garden to sing bd song and eat bd cake for linqian.
and homed. full stop.

oh wells.
i really hate facing my dreams when they become reality.
not all dreams that i hate to face but some of them.
i knew my dream would always be deja vu.
so i would rather be prepared for it den face it head on.
hai.
am i being too paranoid?
oh man.
if there's only one shooting star left in the world,
what would i wish for?
i cant accept the fact that there's still glimpse of hope,
because that the little bit of hope has long gone. : (

i'll wait.

i kinda like PSYCHOLOGY now.
hope i'll be able to have the chance to take both BUSINESS and PSYCHOLOGY during uni.

Ms Tan and Mr Goh!! good luck for the India trip! bon voyage!

-Da-


~ time just flies ~

Posted at 11:57:00 PM